Writing A Grief Blog When Words Fail Me

I read other grief blogs from mothers who have lost their children and from spouses who have lost their husbands or wives and naturally I sympathize. I ache for them as I read their words written so eloquently and poetically. They are written with purpose and emotion. They write with fluidity, their words beautiful, cultured, and […]

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Is Time Running Out? How Grief Leads Us To Question Our Mortality

When Konnor died I felt as if time should have stood still. If not stopped then the earth may have shuddered, paused on it’s axis. I felt the earth shift, the very subtle stillness of it at the very moment I was told of his death. Konnor is gone, the world stopped turning. I could swear […]

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Shattered And Broken: Grief Is Our Name and We Are Beautiful

Yes I said it. We are beautiful. Our insides have been turned inside out, we have distorted our faces with endless sobs of grief for so long it has changed our appearance. We have been shattered, yet we are beautiful in who we have become. We are strong in what we have faced in our […]

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A Grandmother’s Grief: How My Daughter Shared Her Son’s Life and Death

She was a difficult teenager, my daughter. She gave new meaning to the word rebellion. These were the years when I began to realize my advice would mean nothing to her. She stopped going to school, she started doing drugs, and she consistently ran away from home. She was out of control. Yet, the reality […]

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My Conversation With A Medium

I spoke of Konnor’s spirit in a previous blog and how his family believed he had come to visit them from time to time since his death.  I described in that blog how I had been told stories of the afterlife by my paternal grandfather and as a child I had not doubted what my […]

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Grieving Your Own Way

Today is Konnor’s birthday. He would have been ten today. It marks what those of us in grief call a “grief trigger.”  Considering that Konnor has been gone from us for only one year and four months, I still find I am adjusting to his loss and at times need to simply let myself feel […]

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Love is the Answer

 Konnor provided me with a lesson on love. He was a very affectionate child. From the very beginnings of infancy to his toddler days to his last years he was loving. He loved hugs and cuddling. He was kind and caring. He had his struggles but he never let it get him down or let it deter […]

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I think of You

When my mind begins to wake even before my eyes have a chance to glimpse the morning light, I think of you. When I drive in my car, no matter the destination, music gently playing to soothe my aching heart, I think of you. When I am shopping and although I know you’re no longer here with me physically, […]

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Through Grief ..I Believe

I wasn’t sure if  I was a believer. I wasn’t raised in a religious family. Oh sure I was baptized in the Catholic Church, I had my first communion. But I wasn’t taught anything about God. Or should I say, anything I could remember. So when Konnor died I struggled with my faith. How could […]

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