In Memoriam: When Grief Lasts Longer Than Memory

I fear that if I stop eventually all traces of him that remain will dissolve into nothingness and he will be forgotten.

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Grief Floats: Why We Can’t Let Go

I can’t let go, so I remember. Because remembering is all I have left.

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Lessons From My Shower: Time To Come Clean About Grief And Me

There are personal spaces where grievers feel safe and secure enough to expose our open wounds. Within these spaces we express our raw, ravaged souls. We grieve alone, hidden in the safety of these places where no one can see us. These private, some not so private places were and still are inescapable. Whether encapsulated […]

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Children And Loss: Warning Signs of Unresolved Grief

Putting yourself back together after the loss of a loved one is a timeless process. Grief is a journey without an end. Yes, grief is yielding. It does eventually become less painful, the mercy of time easing to an ache. Although the gut-wrenching agony has passed, who we were and who we are now is […]

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On Konnor’s Second Angelversary I Make A Wish…

I hold a secret desire that wishes could come true. I keep many wishes deep within my heart. I whisper them late at night when the stars are shining bright with the hope they will be heard. I want to possess the secret lamp that I can rub and make all my wishes come true… […]

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Sweet Dreams Of You

I sat at the table with my hands folded under my chin. There was family talking and moving throughout the room. I sensed his presence before I saw him. Turning in his direction I watched his form move toward me. He walked slowly, head down, staring at the plate of cupcakes he was carrying. My […]

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Until We Meet Again

It was at the request of Konnor’s mother (my daughter) and his father that the theme of his wake be not a goodbye but an “until we meet again.”  The very thought of never being united, touching him or laying eyes upon him again was too much to bear. I have not applied this concept […]

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The Monster In My Head I Call Grief

I woke up to the doorbell ringing. It was 9:45 at night, I don’t usually get visitors at all especially at this time of the night. I had not slept the night before. It was the 22nd. It was my Dad’s birthday, he had passed away in May of 2004 yet I still can hear […]

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The Dating Game: Reclaiming Love And Hope In Grief

I’m driving on my way home from a work meeting listening to my favorite music and I’m singing along. The sun is out, traffic is light, it’s been a stress free day with not much on my mind other than the current lyrics and whats for dinner. When out of nowhere…I’m singing and without warning […]

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Searching For The Light In The Darkness Of Grief

For those of you who are just beginning your grief journey, I am here to reassure you and tell you that I understand what you are going through right this moment. I have been where you are. I want you to know it will get easier. I know this sounds untrue and it feels unforgiving […]

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