Until We Meet Again

It was at the request of Konnor’s mother (my daughter) and his father that the theme of his wake be not a goodbye but an “until we meet again.”  The very thought of never being united, touching him or laying eyes upon him again was too much to bear. I have not applied this concept […]

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The Monster In My Head I Call Grief

I woke up to the doorbell ringing. It was 9:45 at night, I don’t usually get visitors at all especially at this time of the night. I had not slept the night before. It was the 22nd. It was my Dad’s birthday, he had passed away in May of 2004 yet I still can hear […]

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The Dating Game: Reclaiming Love And Hope In Grief

I’m driving on my way home from a work meeting listening to my favorite music and I’m singing along. The sun is out, traffic is light, it’s been a stress free day with not much on my mind other than the current lyrics and whats for dinner. When out of nowhere…I’m singing and without warning […]

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Searching For The Light In The Darkness Of Grief

For those of you who are just beginning your grief journey, I am here to tell you that I understand what you are going through this very moment. I have been where you are. I want you to know it will get easier. I know this sounds untrue and it feels unforgiving but I want […]

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Writing A Grief Blog When Words Fail Me

I have read other grief blogs from mothers who have lost their children and from spouses who have lost their husbands or wives and naturally I sympathize. I ache for them as I read their words written so eloquently and poetically. They are written with purpose and emotion. They write with fluidity, their words beautiful, cultured, […]

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Is Time Running Out? How Grief Leads Us To Question Our Mortality

When Konnor died I felt as if time should have stood still. If the clock did not stop then the earth may have shuddered, paused on it’s axis. I felt my world shift, a quiet stillness of it at the very moment I was told of his death. Konnor is gone, the world stopped turning. I […]

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Finding Moments of Peace Within a Grieving Heart

At times it seems like the negative thoughts and sadness are taking a toll on me and I start to wonder if my mind and heart will ever find peace. Suddenly, I finally feel an unknown source of calm, I  relax into it and just let myself  “be.” Be in that moment of time where […]

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Staying Afloat When Grief Steals Your Identity

The hardest part of grief aside from the obvious loss of your loved one is the physical and internal changes within your self. Your being. The body’s response is sudden and arduous, truly your mind is not conscious of what is happening to you, only what has happened to your loved one. Yet, it may […]

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A Grandmother’s Grief: How My Daughter Shared Her Son’s Life and Death

She was a difficult teenager, my daughter. She gave new meaning to the word rebellion. These were the years when I began to realize my advice would mean nothing to her. She stopped going to school, she started doing drugs, and she consistently ran away from home. She was out of control. Yet, the reality […]

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Songs of My Life: The Importance Of Music in Grief

Music has been a very consistent presence in my life.  I’m not one for silence really. Cleaning the house, music in the background; in the car, music in the background. I have even been known to break out in song at work on my hospital unit. Music has been that much of an influence in […]

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