The Gift Of Grief
Category: Grief
Awakenings
It’s been a while since my last blog, I was feeling the need to write again. I feel like my mind has become healthier. I am putting to use what I have learned in therapy and what I have read. Old habits of negative thinking and dwelling on things I cannot control are no longer controlling […]
Read MoreMental Illness: Treating My Major Depressive Episode From The Inside Out
I was willing to do the work. I wanted to become self-aware of my own behaviors, and the workings within my own mind. I had come to realize my thinking behaviors specifically my own negativity had been an old habit.
Read MoreA Mother’s Interpretation Of What The Gay Pride Parade Is And What It Isn’t
This summer I was having lunch with a friend when I mentioned my son had attended his first gay pride parade. I cannot recall the whole context of the conversation but I do remember feeling the sting when I heard her say “they don’t have to rub it in our face.” Now this is my […]
Read MoreRest In Peace And Me In Pieces
Here it is again. The anniversary of his passing. Bittersweet November. The first snowfall I can’t help but think of Konnor, he passed the day after that first snowfall of 2015. A blizzard, then a stillness. A quiet I will never forget as I made my way to the hospital that dreadful day. The only […]
Read MoreGuarding Your Heart: Coping With Parental Estrangement
Four months ago I missed my granddaughters’ birthday party because I was in the ER with a severe case of vertigo. Because this wasn’t the first event I missed in the last three years my eldest daughter, Taryn, decided she had enough of me disappointing her and thus began a punishment of my being denied […]
Read MoreIn Memoriam: When Grief Lasts Longer Than Memory
I fear that if I stop eventually all traces of him that remain will dissolve into nothingness and he will be forgotten.
Read MoreMaking Sense Of What Grievers Really Need
We really just want to be seen and we just want to be heard.
Read MoreBecoming Melancholy: How My Grandson’s Death Changed The Way I Live
I continue to learn and grow as this new person I have become, a griever making my re-entry back into life among those untouched by loss. In adjusting to the new me I have come to accept things about myself that at first I assumed were temporary. I now know that I am permanently changed. […]
Read MoreGrief Floats: Why We Can’t Let Go
I can’t let go, so I remember. Because remembering is all I have left.
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