Konnor’s Lullaby: Reflections on Grieving five years later

November 15, 2020.Reading time 7 minutes.

This year marks the five year anniversary of Konnor’s passing. As November creeps in I again begin to feel moody, emotional, tired. Death anniversaries force grievers to re-live the events of the worst day of their lives. The loss already haunts us, the anniversary opens the wound. No matter how long ago it was the […]

After Life: Are There Signs From Above?

March 1, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

We will never know what comes after this life…

The Gift Of Grief

October 12, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

In suffering I have been blessed…

Awakenings

August 5, 2019.Reading time 8 minutes.

It’s been a while since my last blog, I was feeling the need to write again. I feel like my mind has become healthier. I am putting to use what I have learned in therapy and what I have read. Old habits of negative thinking and dwelling on things I cannot control are no longer controlling […]

Mental Illness: Treating My Major Depressive Episode From The Inside Out

January 30, 2019.Reading time 8 minutes.

I was willing to do the work. I wanted to become self-aware of my own behaviors, and the workings within my own mind. I had come to realize my thinking behaviors specifically my own negativity had been an old habit.

A Mother’s Interpretation Of What The Gay Pride Parade Is And What It Isn’t

December 17, 2018.Reading time 7 minutes.

This summer I was having lunch with a friend when I mentioned my son had attended his first gay pride parade. I cannot recall the whole context of the conversation but I do remember feeling the sting when I heard her say “they don’t have to rub it in our face.” Now this is my […]

Rest In Peace And Me In Pieces

November 25, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

Here it is again. The anniversary of his passing. Bittersweet November. The first snowfall I can’t help but think of Konnor, he passed the day after that first snowfall of 2015. A blizzard, then a stillness. A quiet I will never forget as I made my way to the hospital that dreadful day. The only […]

Guarding Your Heart: Coping With Parental Estrangement

October 29, 2018.Reading time 11 minutes.

Four months ago I missed my granddaughters’ birthday party because I was in the ER with a severe case of vertigo. Because this wasn’t the first event I missed in the last three years my eldest daughter, Taryn, decided she had enough of me disappointing her and thus began a punishment of my being denied […]