A Bitter Pill to Swallow

November 21, 2022.Reading time 6 minutes.

I was working at a local hospital on the covid unit. I had voiced concerns over issues that I felt affected patient care and discharges from the day I started. Nearly eighteen months later I was crying every day and surrendered to being on antidepressants. I began to look for a new job when I […]

A Season Of Grief

November 3, 2021.Reading time 6 minutes.

My son called me in mid September. He couldn’t figure out why he was beginning to feel so sad. “It’s because of the er’s” I said. “The what? He asked.” “You know, September, October and November. The er’s, I replied. The months that remind us that Konnor left us.” Grief is similar to depression in […]

Konnor’s Lullaby: Reflections on Grieving five years later

November 15, 2020.Reading time 7 minutes.

This year marks the five year anniversary of Konnor’s passing. As November creeps in I again begin to feel moody, emotional, tired. Death anniversaries force grievers to relive the events of the worst day of their lives. The loss already haunts us, the anniversary opens the wound. No matter how long ago it was the […]

The Gift Of Grief

October 12, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

In suffering I have been blessed…

Rest In Peace And Me In Pieces

November 25, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

Here it is again. The anniversary of his passing. Bittersweet November. The first snowfall I can’t help but think of Konnor, he passed the day after that first snowfall of 2015. A blizzard, then a stillness. A quiet I will never forget as I made my way to the hospital that dreadful day. The only […]

In Memoriam: When Grief Lasts Longer Than Memory

July 22, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

I fear that if I stop eventually all traces of him that remain will dissolve into nothingness and he will be forgotten.

Making Sense Of What Grievers Really Need

May 20, 2018.Reading time 8 minutes.

We really just want to be seen and we just want to be heard.

Becoming Melancholy: How My Grandson’s Death Changed The Way I Live

April 22, 2018.Reading time 5 minutes.

I continue to learn and grow as this new person I have become, a griever making my re-entry back into life among those untouched by loss. In adjusting to the new me I have come to accept things about myself that at first I assumed were temporary. I now know that I am permanently changed. […]

Grief Floats: Why We Can’t Let Go

March 22, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

I can’t let go, so I remember. Because remembering is all I have left.

Lessons From My Shower: Time To Come Clean About Grief And Me

February 22, 2018.Reading time 8 minutes.

There are personal spaces where grievers feel safe and secure enough to expose our open wounds. It is within these spaces we grieve alone. Hidden in the safety. Of these places we express our raw, ravaged souls. These private, some not so private places were and still are inescapable. Whether encapsulated in our vehicle or […]

Konnor's Lullaby

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