“Heal Thy Soul”

“Whenever we suffer a physical or emotional trauma, it is said that a part of our soul flees the body in order to survive the experience. With every cut and wound, our essence and vitality grows weaker. This process is called soul loss.“ It is no wonder I have struggled to feel complete since the loss […]

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On Konnor’s Second Angelversary I Make A Wish…

I hold a secret desire that wishes could come true. I keep many wishes deep within my heart. I whisper them late at night when the stars are shining bright with the hope they will be heard. I want to possess the secret lamp that I can rub and make all my wishes come true… […]

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Sweet Dreams Of You

I sat at the table with my hands folded under my chin. I could hear people talking and I saw family moving throughout the room. I sensed his presence before I actually saw him. As I turned in his direction I watched his form move toward me. He walked slowly, head down, staring at the […]

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Until We Meet Again

It was at the request of Konnor’s mother (my daughter) and his father that the theme of his wake be not a goodbye but an “until we meet again.”  The very thought of never being united, touching him or laying eyes upon him again was too much to bear. I have not applied this concept […]

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The Monster In My Head I Call Grief

I woke up to the doorbell ringing. It was 9:45 at night, I don’t usually get visitors at all especially at this time of the night. I had not slept the night before. It was the 22nd. It was my Dad’s birthday, he had passed away in May of 2004 yet I still can hear […]

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The Dating Game: Reclaiming Love And Hope In Grief

I’m driving on my way home from a work meeting listening to my favorite music and I’m singing along. The sun is out, traffic is light, it’s been a stress free day with not much on my mind other than the current lyrics and whats for dinner. When out of nowhere…I’m singing and without warning […]

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Searching For The Light In The Darkness Of Grief

For those of you who are just beginning your grief journey, I am here to tell you that I understand what you are going through this very moment. I have been where you are. I want you to know it will get easier. I know this sounds untrue and it feels unforgiving but I want […]

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Writing A Grief Blog When Words Fail Me

I have read other grief blogs from mothers who have lost their children and from spouses who have lost their husbands or wives and naturally I sympathize. I ache for them as I read their words written so eloquently and poetically. They are written with purpose and emotion. They write with fluidity, their words beautiful, cultured, […]

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Is Time Running Out? How Grief Leads Us To Question Our Mortality

When Konnor died I felt as if time should have stood still. If the clock did not stop then the earth may have shuddered, paused on it’s axis. I felt my world shift, a quiet stillness of it at the very moment I was told of his death. Konnor is gone, the world stopped turning. I […]

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Finding Moments of Peace Within a Grieving Heart

At times it seems like the negative thoughts and sadness are taking a toll on me and I start to wonder if my mind and heart will ever find peace. Suddenly, I finally feel an unknown source of calm, I  relax into it and just let myself  “be.” Be in that moment of time where […]

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